New Beginnings
Wow! What an intense, incredible, enlightening, challenging and unexpected time we are living in. In times like these I feel we are called to sit back and take stock of life, of dreams, of health and of purpose. These last few months have given me the opportunity to take stock. 22 years. As a Registered Massage Therapist(RMT). I learned a lot. About myself, about bodies and their conditions, about people and how they choose to live and heal…or to not live and not heal.
What I’ve learned most is that every one of us wants to find purpose in life. That we all carry stress, we all carry past pain, ours and ancestral, and that we can heal our deepest wounds and pains and struggles. Our answers and healing are found within. We have everything we need, yet we struggle to find those answers and healing.
We are taught to reach outside of ourselves for the answers or for healing of the pains and wounds we carry.
The healing professionals, of which I was one, tout that we offer what can fix you…until we can’t.
As professionals, we are taught that the paradigm we have spent so much time, money and energy studying will be THE fix for what ails people.
And then when that doesn’t happen…the fix doesn’t come, or it is short lived we feel like failures. You feel like the professionals haven’t done their job, there’s got to be someone better!
Well, there is! YOU! In 22 years of a paradigm of Registered Massage Therapy what I realize most is I cannot heal anyone. I cannot fix anyone. All I can do is hold a safe and sacred space and guide anyone into the feelings in their bodies and into the knowing in their hearts to find the answers to their pain and struggles and hurts.
I’ve known this for a long time in my profession, yet I doubted that I could make a transition to a new way of supporting people through healing and be successful.
It would mean letting go of the security of an old way of working. An old way of relating to clients and an old paradigm of how I was taught and regulated and expected to help people.
And so, I tried to integrate a new way inside the old way. That worked for some time. Many would say I was successful at doing that. But I could feel in me the toll it was taking. Being the “fixer/healer” and supporting/teaching/coaching/guiding at the same time.
It was exhausting. Don’t get me wrong. I was rewarded with the impact I have had on so many lives. I am ever grateful for the opportunity to touch people and help them to find healing and greater experience in their own lives. I know I was able to make impact. I know the work I’ve done was needed, accepted and appreciated. I am ever grateful to have had an incredible 22 years of treating incredible human beings. Witnessing transformations, incredible healing and even miracles.
And at the same time, I was feeling incredibly depleted and out of alignment with my true calling. I felt the boundaries of my profession were limiting me and my ability to serve humanity in my greatest way, with all the talent, skill and wisdom I possess. I felt I was cheating myself and others out of greater healing opportunities.
It was a hard choice, one I couldn’t make, until the pandemic hit. I was able through the grace of world shifts to step back. To take the time to feel for myself and to feel what needed to heal in me. Which was a lot!
I took the time given to me to contemplate my own purpose and when I was allowed to step back in as an RMT I just couldn’t. I could no longer betray my true purpose, my true gifts to step back into a paradigm that limited me in how I could offer more love and light to this world.
And so, I didn’t. I didn’t return. I let go of my registered massage therapist status. I stepped into a course to Learn Meditation Coaching. Which really wasn’t anything new for me yet gave me the container to include all my experience, energy and wisdom from all facets of my life. It helped me to see how much more I have to offer the world beyond the paradigm of massage therapy.
I have taken much time to go into deep healing pieces in my own life…physical, mental and emotional and spiritual healing. To learn how to align with my truth, my power and my beauty to share in this world.
I’ve had some incredible experiences, have been gifted with so much love and support and healing I could never have imagined wanting, needing and receiving. I’ve realized the amazing people I am surrounded by…from close circles to distant community. I am blessed.
And now it’s time to surface. To share all I have learned, healed and lived. It’s time to live in my authenticity. To share my wisdom, passion and truth, my way.
And so, I offer you my new website as an introduction and a work in progress. I’ve already shifted since publishing it, and that’s okay. Life is ever changing and shifting, growing and revealing just as we all are.
Yet what I am offering is, at the core, the same as I have always offered…safe and sacred space, where I help guide you into your own truth, healing and power. This enables you to feel and find the greatest love and light available to you, in you and for you.
To all of you who have been with me somewhere along this journey, my deepest gratitude. I would not be here without you. Without your courage to dive in, to trust what I have to offer…then and now, I am ever grateful for this journey and evolution into what is next. More of the same but different.
May you know the incredible healing available to you, in you and for you. The amazing being you are. The power you possess to live a life you love and desire. I am here to Empower you to Empower yourself!
With Love and Deep Gratitude Always,
Paula